It took me quite a while to be able to put my thoughts in a form that everyone could see it, again. But here I am.
You know in the last couple of months I have been called a person without faith, in many levels and many situations. People called me an atheist, a person who left god behind, that abandoned my church and even used this blog to qualify me as faithless. And I had a hard time arguing with that because I have a hard time explaining my faith. Why?
Well first it’s very unorthodox, as I said before I believe in so many things, fairies, gnomes, Santa Claus and every other magical creature that you remember (but the Easter bunny because again who believes in a rabbit that lays chocolate eggs, nonsense). But if you ask if I believe in the all mighty One, Yahweh, Iluvatar, Allah, Morgan Freeman or simply God, the answer is since I am a little toddler, a NO. Specially when it comes to JC, I may have had my doubts about Iluvatar, but I have never had a doubt about Jesus Christ. But that doesn’t make me a person without faith, as far as I see makes me a person with a higher faith a different faith.
I do my prayers almost every day, I cry and ask the gods for direction and clearance in my path. Yes gods with minor G, as in more than one. gods be good since I was a little child I do that and believe in that, and more than once I shamed to say that my faith as diminished specially one my path is rough, but name a god Christian who never felt this way. Today I have no reason to doubt my faith, every single challenge put in my way made me stronger, and every step on the way I saw the protection of the gods, even when it hurt the most in the past, today I know it was the easiest way to lead me in the right direction. So yes, I have faith in the gods. Pray almost every night and I believe that I am protected by them.
And people are going to ask me but why don’t you believe that you are protected by God, He could be protecting you and leading you and you are being ungrateful to His kindness. Well I don’t feel like that in my most inner self, I feel the touch of the gods in every step of the way and the only doubt the occasionally appears is because of the prejudice and intolerance, it’s because of all the people telling me that I am wrong, when I don’t feel wrong. And that demands always an extra bust of faith.
So that is why I am not faithless, I am actually a very faithful person, believing in something different but all the more fulfilling for me. And for a whole lot of reasons I believe in gods, because they are the sole answer to the Way I See the world.
You know in the last couple of months I have been called a person without faith, in many levels and many situations. People called me an atheist, a person who left god behind, that abandoned my church and even used this blog to qualify me as faithless. And I had a hard time arguing with that because I have a hard time explaining my faith. Why?
Well first it’s very unorthodox, as I said before I believe in so many things, fairies, gnomes, Santa Claus and every other magical creature that you remember (but the Easter bunny because again who believes in a rabbit that lays chocolate eggs, nonsense). But if you ask if I believe in the all mighty One, Yahweh, Iluvatar, Allah, Morgan Freeman or simply God, the answer is since I am a little toddler, a NO. Specially when it comes to JC, I may have had my doubts about Iluvatar, but I have never had a doubt about Jesus Christ. But that doesn’t make me a person without faith, as far as I see makes me a person with a higher faith a different faith.
I do my prayers almost every day, I cry and ask the gods for direction and clearance in my path. Yes gods with minor G, as in more than one. gods be good since I was a little child I do that and believe in that, and more than once I shamed to say that my faith as diminished specially one my path is rough, but name a god Christian who never felt this way. Today I have no reason to doubt my faith, every single challenge put in my way made me stronger, and every step on the way I saw the protection of the gods, even when it hurt the most in the past, today I know it was the easiest way to lead me in the right direction. So yes, I have faith in the gods. Pray almost every night and I believe that I am protected by them.
And people are going to ask me but why don’t you believe that you are protected by God, He could be protecting you and leading you and you are being ungrateful to His kindness. Well I don’t feel like that in my most inner self, I feel the touch of the gods in every step of the way and the only doubt the occasionally appears is because of the prejudice and intolerance, it’s because of all the people telling me that I am wrong, when I don’t feel wrong. And that demands always an extra bust of faith.
So that is why I am not faithless, I am actually a very faithful person, believing in something different but all the more fulfilling for me. And for a whole lot of reasons I believe in gods, because they are the sole answer to the Way I See the world.
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